I will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able.

2013 was a roller coster. Last January I started to feel ill. Little by little it got worse and worse. I was in and out of emergency rooms. Every test in the book was being ran and I was sent from specialist to specialist. Unfortunately, all the tests and blood work came back normal.  Leaving me with no answers!

As a recovery addict being sick is a HUGE TRIGGER. Today as I was watching New Testament videos I watched the one about the women with “the issue of blood”. Tears filled my eyes.

I was so frustrated this week trying to do every single thing that I could do to get rid of headaches. They have been coming on for the past week constantly. I let Satan step in because of my frustration. He tricked me into thinking that God was not helping me anymore. Telling me it had been a year and what has come of it, well as I tried to reach for God's help, He showed me what has come of it:

The Lord guided me to this video. I was reminded that God has power to do all. We must have faith. In Mark 5 it says,” Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague”. How beautiful! 

In last April Conference Elder Erying gave a talk called "In the strength of the Lord":

“The combination of trials and their duration are as varied as are the children of our Heavenly Father. No two are alike. But what is being tested is the same, at all times in our lives and for every person: will we do whatsoever the Lord our God will command us?

Knowing why we are tested and what the test is tells us how to get help. We have to go to God. He gives us the commandments. And we will need more that our own strength to keep them. 

..The restoed gospel makes plain the simple things we need to do. And it gives us confidence that the help we need will come.”

I can bear my testimony that God knows me better than I know myself. He has given me challenges, as well as all of us, because He knows you can handle it. We can do it with Him, we must have faith. Deep in my addiction this scripture used to make me so upset: 

 1 Corinthians 10:13: There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

I used to think that God was mad at me and gave me this addiction and struggles. I could not understand it. I am so grateful to be reminded today that I choose to come down to earth and go through EVERY single trial because I loved my Father in heaven so much that I would do whatever it took to return to him. 

Today was a hard day, but I will do anything to get back with Him. I know it will be worth it. Day by day, moment to moment always, always rely on Him. A great reminder for today and every day. 

Thank you Lord.

Much Love, 

Rachel 

“The test of a loving God has set before us is not to see if we can endure difficulty. It is to see if we can endure it well. We pass the test by showing that we remembered Him and the commandments He gave us.”